In The Absence Of You
Publication date: June 28th 2016
Genres: Contemporary, New Adult, Romance
Aishe is running. Running from the burn of a love she knows will consume her.
Running from a soul mate she’s never even met.
If only she hadn’t been hired as a merch girl for the hottest indie band on earth.
If only she’d never laid eyes on its front man, Emil—intense, sexy, and so unlike the men of her culture.
If only she hadn’t fallen onto his lips, then into his bed.
If only her flame hadn’t exploded into a full-on forest fire.
If only Emil’s heart didn’t belong to someone else.
Emil is running. Running from a broken heart.
Running from who he was with her.
If only Zoe hadn’t left.
If only Aishe hadn’t been right there.
If only she hadn’t been so damn gorgeous—insistent—different.
If only he could control himself around her.
AISHEI come from a family that burns with love. You wouldn’t understand unless you were one of us. I’m not just talking my father and my mother—I’m talking every one of my ancestors. It’s in our genetic build to spend all of our energy on love.
Once we come of age, it strikes and blazes with a fire that eats you alive. This love is a plague that boils in my race and in my culture, and I wouldn’t know a different way unless I’d broken free and seen strangers love with milder flames.
Tonight, my eyes go from the merchandise on my table to the blond-headed burst of life hopping off the stage. His gaze shimmers with amusement, a cocky lip twitching as he slaps high-fives to guys and pinches girl-cheeks on his way over.
“Aishe! You got those super-tight, hot little tees with the broken heart thingy on the front? The ones the chicks dig?” he asks once he’s in front of me, Emil, the vocalist of Clown Irruption, one of the hottest alt-rock indie-bands out there. I’ve been their merch girl for a few months now. Each night, I zoom in on Emil with less and less difficulty.
“Yeah. Troll picked them up this morning,” I say referring to their tour manager.
“This is so cool—finally we see actual merch money,” Emil laughs out. Then he sets a hand to the table and squints at me. “You’ve done much better than your cousin. I mean, Shandor, man.” He shakes his head playfully. “He couldn’t draw dudes to the stand worth shit.”
My face loosens in a smile. I send a subtle glance at Shandor, who’s busy wrapping things up on stage, coiling cables and breaking down drums. To sell T-shirts wasn’t what he burned for. Shandor was born with the plague of our people too, but he hasn’t found his beloved yet. My people, we need something to obsess over, so if it’s not a man’s love for a woman or vice versa, it’s something else, and Shandor, he loves his music. Once the band promoted him from merch guy to monitors on stage, he recommended me to fill his spot, and voilà, here I am.
Shandor raises his head and stills on us, focus intent from under dark locks. He’s got a sixth sense for when guys chitchat with me. Like me, he left our traveling community years back, but the need to protect any girl of our people is so deep-rooted I doubt he ever questions it. Shandor would do everything in his power to stop any man, employer or not, from toying with his little cousin.
I straighten so that I’m tall for my height. Though I’m not overly curvy, I’m lean and strong. Supposedly, I’m also fiery, a bit fierce, a bit ferocious, traits that make me who I am, traits I don’t need here in the outside world as opposed to amongst those I was born to.
I intimidate most men with the stance I take right now, but I can’t intimidate Shandor. He glares, telling me without words what not to do, and next he pierces his stare into Emil’s back. Oblivious, Emil juts his index finger at the case of lukewarm beers behind me, wiggles it back and forth quickly, lips pursed in anticipation. “Hand over one of those babies, will ya?”
My Review: (ARC provided)
Ahhhh where do I begin? Sunniva took us to a very dark place, this book had me cursing her, cursing the characters and thinking way ahead. What is to become of Emil? What about Aishe? And what happened to Zoe?
If you’ve read Walking Heartbreak you know a bit about Emil and a little about Emil and Zoe’s relationship. This can be read has a standalone but do yourself a favor and read Walking Heartbreak you will not be disappointed. Anyways back to Emil…that boy has it bad, he is beyond broken and he can’t cope, he uses alcohol, sex and performing to help him erase his pain. Aishe was raised by gypsy’s they love hard, they call it the “plague” the “love fire” and when they fall it is all consuming.
Aishe wants to get away from her family and still live somewhat of a gypsy life, so she chooses to travel with the band and help with the sales of merchandise. She is their “merch” girl. She is beautiful and somewhat obsessed with Emil while he is still infatuated with his ex Zoe. Aishe figures she can help Emil heal by letting him use her emotionally and physically all while she tries not to get the “plague” of her people.
“It’s what I need, for my consolation prize to leave, the intruder into the crazies of lost loves.”
This book had me confused I didn’t know what I wanted. I will tell you I didn’t feel it with Aishe and Emil but that’s all I’m saying. Throughout the book I wanted Aishe to convince Emil to get help, he was so severely depressed, but instead she used his depression to get closer to him. She felt she was doing him good but he wasn’t getting better he slowly started spiraling out of control and Aishe slowly became more and more dependent on this, dependent on him needing her. She was definitely enabling him, as well as his other band mates.
“We’re in a small world, Emil and I, where Zoe can’t hurt him and I’m the heroine who can make him better.”
I think I have to leave it here; I can’t get much more into it without giving away major details. This isn’t a pretty feel good story it has a lot of flawed characters and much depth and emotion. This book makes you feel. These characters make some bad judgment calls but in the end I’m happy with how everything turns out.
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Between studies, teaching, and advising, Sunniva has spent her entire adult life in a college environment. Most of her novels are new adult romance geared toward smart, passionate readers with a love for eclectic language and engaging their brain as well as their heart while reading.
Born in the Land of the Midnight Sun, the author spent her early twenties making the world her playground. Southern Europe: Spain, Italy, Greece--Argentina: Buenos Aires, in particular. The United States finally kept her interest, and after half a decade in Los Angeles, she now lounges in the beautiful city of Savannah.
Sometimes, Sunniva writes with a paranormal twist (Shattering Halos, Stargazer, and Cat Love). At other times, it's contemporary (Pandora Wild Child, Leon's Way, Adrenaline Crush, Walking Heartbreak, and Dodging Trains, coming in late March 2016).
This author is the happiest when her characters let their emotions run off with them, shaping her stories in ways she never foresaw. She loves bad-boys and good-boys run amok, and like in real life, her goal is to keep the reader on her toes until the end of each story.
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